I'm tired of complaining about work. Honestly. Because having such bad mental connection to something i have to do every single day isn't helping me. Physically and mentally. I can't put myself into my job, everything that comes out of my mouth is actually empty. I'm just teaching a lesson, I'm not interacting with my kids, i'm not engaging them. Hell. I don't even engage myself anymore and that's bad honestly. I'm on auto-pilot. There isn't any personal touch. I don't like functioning this way. That's not why I went into teaching. So there are now 2 options.

1. Survive the next 3 months and start afresh next year.
2. Change and try to engage my students more.

Honestly, option 1 is more doable. And achievable. Option 2 is going to be tough because I don't have high hopes for my students. I can change. But would they change? Teaching is a two-way process - Me in-charge of teaching. Students are in-charge of the learning. They have to learn to own their learning. We can't be chasing after them for classwork, homework, to remember to behave appropriately during school time. There is only that much that we can do as teachers.

Hopefully this coming week, being a short school week, will give me some time to review my work thus far and think of measures to tackle the students for what remains of the semester. And it's going to be a short one. When I say 3 months, that's really how long I have. According to KK, my training for NCC will take place beginning of Nov. So we'll see.