For the first time in my life, I actually wanted resolution. Maybe because i have decided that it has gone on long enough. We had one last conversation before everything flowed away. It was a frustrating conversation of which i will not repeat here because it has lost its meaning. And from there, we didn't talk again. After many days of wondering, last night, I saw him on MSN. And he informed me that he's not in Singapore. So he has started his travelling around thing. Without a word. Thanks. I feel damn bloody loserish. But it's ok. I cried my last tear last night. I will not cry for him ever again. That's a promise to myself. So there.. Like G said, one day, some day, someone will WANT to change himself for me, will love me enough to make that change. So I shall hold on to that. One day, some day.
So focus is on getting on with my life and my job. I won't call it a career.. it's not. Not when the feeling i get day to day is "i survived yet another day". 4 weeks and 3 days more. You know it's bad when you are counting down.
