it is true. What my friends have been telling me, that he's poison and not good for me. I finally realise it tonight. He is bitter, he has been hurt, he's doing things to people, innocent people, manipulating them, using the means he know to get them. I might be painting a very bad picture but well.. a lot of things are put into perspective. At the end of the conversation, my conclusion is: I will be happier than him. That's really all that matters. I will find good in everything i do, everything i do, i hope to do some good. And i will be happy. without him. Just like what i wrote in the email. He can be a friend, but nothing more. If he does get married someday, I will be happy for him. Because I believe he has finally reconcile with himself. Maybe it will be a while more before i let him go but i have to. If he loves not me, at least he loves, then that will be good enough. for me. as a friend.