I miss you. I really do. Thinking of you brings tears to my eyes. The other day, when i saw a pregnant woman, I imagine having your child. Man. That was a powerful moment. I cried. For the beauty of it. For the uncertainty that lies ahead. For sheer indulgence. And because I can. Much as I want to harden my heart and not think about you, and me and us, I can't. Somethings in life isn't so easy. We wish it is but well no such luck.

But at the same time, I know i have to let you go and do what you want to do, what you feel you need to do, what you need to do. All I can do is pray that one day, someday, our paths will cross again. We have not left each other's life, just that our lives have becomes separated and functioning parallel to each other. Maybe one day, our lives will become intertwined again, hopefully in a meaningful and lasting manner. Hopefully by then, we will not let our inferiority complex affect us and we will open our hearts to the different possibilities and diethie

I gave myself till 2010 to see if my gut feel about my love life will come true. It's good i guess since i should not wait indefinitely. 2010 is also when my bond will end. So i guess 2010 is like big decision year. oh well.. I'll deal with it when the time comes. So i guess i will need to gear myself up for that. In the meantime, i'm just going to live my life with a good and optimistic attitude. Life goes on. When the decisions loom near, i will know. Sometimes you just know no? yeah.. over a span of 3 years i'm sure i would have come to some kind of answers by then.