It has been a few good days of holiday. Although there are some problems in finding what to do, honestly I welcome the break. I like to not have to worry about anything to do with work. I have done what I've been told to do so yes, that's that.

I love love love my cats. They are absolutely adorable.

this are the only 2 pictures i managed to get after my one professional photo shoot. they are not too bad.. you be the judge when you see the pics.

如果
不瞒你说 我真的有想过
从今以后不再跟你有任何联络
不要再试着暗示我
后来你发现什么
不瞒你说 并不特别寂寞

接下来的几个周末节目特别多
偶尔会有人喜欢我
但并不代表什么

现在的我 不缺什么
认真的生活 偶尔会难过
新朋友很多 他们(都)不够了解我
问了太多 我只是微笑的带过
未来的我 没有如果

不相信星座 能预告什么
假设那么多 过去会不会复活 (过去能不能来过)
最好没有如果 (我不相信如果)
不瞒你说 经过几次风波

你不能再从我脸上读出些什么
要适应的事越来越多
改变的不止是我

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I wanted to send this song to Someone. I feel that this is a song that describes how I feel it's appropriate to the situation between me and Him. I'm still hanging on to the possibility, to the "what if". Although I must say that my grip is no longer as tight. Whether it will be all gone one day, it waits to be seen.

This is the one about the third date rule
I was watching TV and they were talking about how a girl should never go to bed with a guy they are interested in on the first bed. And in Sex and the City, the "three date rule" was also mentioned. So my question would be: with the changing dating landscape, what constitute a date? If a couple met online, would their online chats be considered "dates"? Because I hate to think that I have ruined my chances with people I chat with online, whom I actually have good impressions of, when I finally meet them for the first time and we tumbled into bed on the first date and that spelt the end of things between us. Can we actually deny that online chats or "meetings" are less real than actually meeting face to face? How many people actually find it easier to "talk" in a virtual space? Are those any less real than actual meet-ups which might be awkward?

Ok. I was actually just thinking of one particular guy with regards to this. Yeah.

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This is the one about how girls who are used to foreign men will not be satisfied with locals

Ok. I have to admit. I have heard stories about this happening. I have not personally experienced it. Until recently. Gee. Some guys are really more well-endowed than others. It will put some guys to shame at the sheer difference in size. Of course they can make up for it by being more steadfast in foreplay, by showing more care and concern towards the girl, etc etc. But if it doesn't hit the spot, darling, it doesn't hit the spot. No wonder more and more girls are looking for alternatives (read: vibrators) to get their O.

Of course, other than the physical aspects, there's also the mentality and emotional capabilities of our typical mummy's boy to the well-travelled, impeccably groomed cosmopolitan counterparts. I have forgotten how bak kut teh taste when I am constantly eating spaghetti or sushi for that matter. It's been sometime since I had real good bak kut teh.

In fact, I can't remember a real good bak kut teh. Or a mee goreng or a roti prata for that matter.

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This is the one about having to come back to work and having no motivation to do anything.

While I can understand the rationale on some level, but I feel it's a waste of time when we don't have everyone IN CLASS. We can't start next year's syllabus (begs the question of whether teachers are ready to teach what is to be taught next year). Even if some of us diligent ones have started, we will have to re-teach again next year. How is that being kind to our resources? Why not let the teachers have some time to breathe and then think about what to do next year to make the students work instead of plunging into a programme for the sake of... what.. I lost sight.

Me? I have been downloading games and playing. Honestly. Waste of my time. And money. Cab fare is $17 a day TO school. sigh.

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This one is about how if I read one more beginning paragraph that describes the weather, I will tear the script.

While starting a compo with "The sky was overwhelmed in crimson and amber-tinted clouds" and description of the "cold, grey, tumutuous, dark, ragged, clouds drifting across the sky", it simply show that students take what is given to them wholesale and REPRODUCE without discretion. It gets very tired after 2 of the same thing. Then we know that they have been given fanciful phrases but they do not know how to use these fanciful phrases to greater effect. These phrases are figurative language and should be used to reflect a certain aspect of the story. But overdoing simply make it difficult to swallow.

I always believe when you are being sincere in expressing the emotions, you will have the most suitable words for that moment. The more you try to make an emotion sophisticated, it is more likely you are going to fail in your attempt to express that emotion. Because the emotion got lost in the gigantic words.

I would have been died from the miserable weather in the compositions.

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This is the one about how I got hair colour that resembles Ronald McDonald.

I dyed my hair RED yesterday. It is red. Gee. It is bright red and I love it (despite not having grown into the new hair colour yet) It needs a little getting used to because my previous reds were more like copper and this is a true red reflect. Not to mention after having BLACK hair for a good year and a half, it was kind of strange to see colour on it. sigh. Have to see if it dimmed over the holidays if not i would have to dim it artificially. It is indeed to bright for school. I have to admit that. But who cares. School's out (for everyone else except us) I don't care if the students see it, come on, they are also waiting for school to end so they can do it. No wait. They do it even during school term. Nothing is really done to curb the problem so what's stopping me? sigh. This whole role-model thing is rather heavy and unnecessary at times.

You know... If you ask any of my friends my stand on homosexuality they will probably tell you that I'm very liberal about it. I have gay and lesbian friends and they are perfectly fine people. I have blogged about this topic on several occasion in my previous blogs. With the recent furor about amending or doing away with the penal code that criminalise homosexual sexual activities, I am revisiting this issue again. Perhaps no one reads but it's ok. I just want it to be said out loud that's all.

I told some of my friends before that if i'm not married by the age of 33, I would consider adopting OR IVF (In-vitro Fertilisations) and I told my gay and lesbian friends that they would then have to help me take care of the baby. My lesbian friend asked me, "But he/she would be growing up in a homosexual environment. What if he/she turns gay?" My immediate reply was, "At least he/she would be making a informed choice."

See, my point in raising this now is that, the more you protect someone from a situation, the more he will lose the ability to judge for himself what is good for her" And I see more of this happening, even when it comes to perfectly heterosexual/ non-gender-bias issues or persons involved. For example, the course that a student choose to take. "I do triple science because my mum says i should do so." Probably one of those statements i hear and i can't hear being irritated with it because i have learnt the hard way when you do not do something that you are interested in, it will be detrimental to the goal you set out to achieve. By the by, what happens would be that these people will be set on a path they might not like but it was just convenient. So I would rather teach my kid(s) to make informed decisions instead of telling them what are the correct ones. Yes we don't want our children to make mistakes and suffer. But honestly, that's how some people learn, in fact that's how most people learn. The other important thing that they learn would be to be responsible for the decision made. Whether it's good or bad, they will have to learn to deal with the consequences of their decisions.

Sigh.

Which is better?

To miss someone and not see him, virtually and in real life, no communications, no nothing?

OR

To see the person online, chatted, yet knowing the chat is not like before, like we have become strangers?

心中有一種刺刺的感覺。
有一種難以形容的失落。
想著那個人卻無法說出口。
是自己太窩囊，還是怕受傷？
我也不清楚了。。。

I just got news that one of my ex-student just passed away from severe food poisoning/diarrhea. He's only 14 this year.. I didn't know how to react to the news... i mean he's always the hyperactive sort.. and now he's passed on... really makes us think about how life is so unpredictable...

I always remember once in my lit class, he asked me if he could stand because sitting down was difficult for him since he's always hyperactive... he acted as the monkey during the cny celebration in 2006.. while he's not the brightest but when it came to acting, he was the least inhibited and willing to try what the teacher would ask of him when it came to acting..and his silly antics never failed to bring a smile when it's needed...

Now.. he's gone.. forever.. I heard there were a lot of people there at his funeral. i guess that's testimonial to how people wanted him ard?