11:52 AM
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
This post will be predominantly written in Chinese because i'm so good at it (ha! not!). just like the sounds of chinese words sometimes.. just like how i would always prefer Chinese songs to English. English tunes are catchy but everlasting evergreens belongs to another generation of English songs... oh who cares about my song preferences.. here goes...
年終至此，心中有很多情感交錯。
有歡喜，有悲傷，有喜中帶悲，也有喜從悲來。
人生本來就一定有起浮不定，沒有任何一件事是理所當然的。
這一年，我走出了父母的窩，開始了自己獨立的生活，雖然不容易但有一種快樂，因為我知道我能。
感情上，雖然沒有一張像樣的 result slip，不過我體會了什麼是愛一個人的全部，也認知什麼是愛的越深，痛的越痛。
也懂得什麼是愛一個人並非絕對要擁有。愛一個人真的需要勇氣，因為愛給於我們希望，不過我們也要學會面對失敗的可能性。
工作上，還屬於剛開始。雖然沒有很多successes，也還沒到陷落谷低的低潮。But I have fantastic colleagues which is much more important. (yes this is where I abandon writing in Chinese) I guess looking back at 2007, I would say, not much have changed yet so much had. I'm at another level yet nothing much around me has changed. What's changed is the emotional landscape I'm in, my mentality, My cynicism reaching another level, my attitude towards marriage or any kind of commitment. Personality-wise, I seemed to understand myself more. I have asked myself, at some point in the later half of the year whether i'm in the right job, why i gave up theatrical work, or even why didn't i try performing? Too many questions have come up and i'm not sure when I would find the answers or whether when i find them, I would be ready to admit it. Time will eventually tell. What's in the past can only serve as a constant reminder to our failings and we learn from them.
Here's to a great 2008! One of the things I have resolved to do is pick up Spanish. Going to Movida so much, and hearing the band sing in Spanish makes me want to know what is the meaning of the words. Of course it will help when i want to talk to any of them. It will be cool too. :) So yes, that's the one thing I'm super resolved to do and I will make time and I will learn to stick to it.
It's almost time to say goodbye to 2007. I have said my thanks to a few of my friends when we gathered for wine on Christmas Eve. And no, it wasn't my drunken stupor that was talking but being slightly dislodged from my usual rational self helped. There are perhaps other people I should thank, one of which would be my sister. I know that it has not been easy for her to help me keep the secret but she has never discouraged or said anything nasty so i'm glad. Compared to some of my friends who have terrors as their siblings, I can only thank God that I don't have a psychotic one. :p Friends... there are some i need to catch up with, and there are some i might have subconsciously let go of. But we'll see.. like i said, 2008, new year, new beginnings!
