Happy New Year everyone!
This is however going to be a depressing post.
Be warned.
Ais is right when she says that i pretty much cry only for A. It would be so simple to ignore him. But NO. I have to say hi and show some care and concern. It's crap. I'm a darn hypocrite. I tell people not to do this but i still do. Sigh.. I need shock therapy. Like him telling me that he's married or has a girlfriend and wedding is in the pipelines. Then maybe it will be easier to just cry once and be over and done with. And it will be easier to hate him and not care about him. But no.. I still don't have the bloody strength to walk away and be non-chalent. Shit. I don't know whether i hate it or not. Because on the one hand it shows that I can still care about someone. On the other hand, it's costing me buckets of tears every time. Really don't know... crapshit...
Argh. Tired... Think the only reason i go to Q time and again is because he makes the effort perhaps.. It's just so difficult to meet up with T.B. or anyone else. i'm not in the mood for meeting new people.
