I thought a job is always supposed to make you feel purposeful.
Yet.
At this job, I would start off with optimism and purpose
But after some weeks or even days, my optimism and purpose will wear off.
When I'm immersed in my job, I don't have time to think about my personal life
And it somehow made life a little easier to bear.
But my work buffer wears thin, and I'm not getting anywhere,
be it personal life or professional life,
I get pissed off and depressed.
I get all teary and pessimistic.
I even ask myself why.
Is this job really that self-defeating?
Is not caring the solution to all these problems?
Is closing people off the only way to survive in this job?
Just do what is required and that's that.