Gee.. I think I would be a pretty happy person if I don't have to worry about my CC bills. Then again, I deserve it for over-spending right? I'm the sort who needs to satisfy myself a lot. Empty soul la.. what to do...

Cleaned up the store room just now. Man. we really have a lot of junk. the storeroom is going to be my walk-in closet. What this also means is.. NO MORE PILING THE FLOOR WITH THINGS!!! Otherwise I won't be able to get through at all to my clothes. Hopefully the floor will stay clear.. I know it's not quite possible but well... have to try.

But at least i've got help from my mum and sis. So yes, when my mum said i should have a 感恩的心 (grateful heart) I do. I think my family has been really accommodating. And I really appreciate everything they have done for me thus far. Of course this comes with the nagging, which is something i'm learning to get used to again. Oh well.. there's always a trade-off i guess.. Nothing's perfect in this world.. So I'm going to bring back my stuff this week. I don't know where to stash most of them.. it will go into the store room most prob. Thank goodness it's the long weekend. Some of the clothes will have to be sent to the laundromat.. think I would re-wash everything in my wardrobe since Ais' family has kindly helped me pack but the clothes are all mixed up.. the soiled one with the clean ones.. so CLEAN everything la!!! :) It's going to be a long weekend ahead!! more and more packing~~~ sigh... BUT!!! I would have my queen size bed back!!! finally!!! that's the one thing i missed the most other than the bigger wardrobe.

Oh heck.. listen to me go on and on.. but i'm happy. I really am.

Last night I was having a beer by the river with Di. I mean we wanted to do the get free drinks for Ladies' night thing.. but it got irritating when it's difficult to get the drinks and girls keep cutting into the queue and all for free drinks. So yes.. After a few drinks, I decided to call it quits and adjourn to the river to drink beer and not have to shout to have a conversation.

We were talking and stuff usually include work, people, love, lack of love life, sex etc etc. As we were talking about Di's work, I was telling her that maybe her next job she should go for something closer to a personal assistant. Guess what happened this morning? Her recruitment agency called her offering her a contract for the post of Lead Secretary. I guess.. I was close enough no? So that was a funny moment. Just when I told Si-mi like two years ago that she might not spend christmas alone afterall and hold and behold, she got a date and they have been together since. I was telling Di i should go and 摆攤 and tell fortunes. hahahaha.. but sometimes it's merely observing and knowing cycles do not change all that much. I told Di to go for it because it will be a break in her employment cycle. I told her it would be a good continuity to her current stability. She has gone through the "after 6 months, I would be without a job for another few months" cycle once too many times and if she doesn't take it into her own hands to change things, things might never change. At the moment, whatever reasons she had put forth, to me, are non-consequential because changing the overall is more important than small details like whether it's in the same company, who she would be working with, etc. Oh well.. ultimately it's going to be her choice. *shrug* I can only say that much and honestly sometimes I do think that she does not take my advice readily. She would ask a couple of people and in the end she would make the decision because someone else said the same thing I did. Sigh. nvm. life goes on.

When you get to my age, I believe that happiness comes in small packages. That way, can have more packages :) It's always a matter of Big package of happiness that last you for a while but then once it's gone, you have to wait for the next big package of happiness.. The good thing with small packages is that you can have it for a shorter while but definitely on a more regular basis. And one more good thing about small packages - you can be the one who finds all these small nuggets of joy. When it's big packages, it would probably need to be from another person. But the smaller packages are more independent. You decide what makes you happy. Like waking up in the morning makes me happy, that i have another day and such. or being able to do inline skating despite my weight and all. I guess that's the whole idea of being contented and thus finding happiness. my positive outlook always allows me to really look on the brighter side of things. And for that I'm glad honestly.

So cheers to the happiness I get from the small things.. which will always make me cherish the happiness and make me realise how very lucky I am.

I can't sleep. I'm so excited about getting my skates tomorrow it's a little insane. I'm now planning where I should get them. I would probably get them from Skateline since I'm attracted to their after-sales care when I become a Skatefriend. I'm kinda decided on which brand. Prob will get from peninsular branch since I need to go buy tickets for movie on friday. Right now, it's a matter of whether I should come home first before going to Jan's place for dinner. I need to get wine glasses too for Jan. I feel like taking the skates out for a spin. But it's a matter of where I think.. maybe I'd pop by school to have a go at it.. afterall Jan's place is just opposite. So that might work. I want to see if I can successfully make a claim for the purchase of my blades... So school sound real good at the moment. heehee..

Daily Extended: June 11, 2008

GEMINI

May 21-June 21

If you are working on building a new romance right now, the best course if action is no action at all! Now is not the time to move anything forward -- even though you are filled with a sense that you've got to act now if you want to make this thing work. Rushing ahead right now will only force you to compromise what you want. You can't overlook the truth just because you don't like it. Let this person simmer for a while, and soon enough they will come to you.

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See... the cosmos agrees with me. :)

Hahahaha!! after scrapbooking, it's inline skating. :) new hobby. I will get back to scrapbooking when i take back all my things. I need to start clearing the store room so that i can move back my things and have a place to put all my barang.

Looking to buying my first pair of mid-range skates. it will either be K2 Athena 2007 (heehee.. remember my toy hippo? same name) (sidenote: athena 2008 is damn chio.. but it's at least $80 more...) Or I might go for Rollerblades (the brand) The reason i would go for Rollerblades would be its TFS lacing system. Personally I do not like laces.. because they will loosen and then it will be unstable. So have to figure a way to make sure the laces are tighten. Ok. Show you all the 2007 Athena. I like it. In fact.. I'm swaying more and more towards it. Cheap (compared to the other K2 range) But since skates technology do not change all that much it's ok. I just have to make sure that I can change the wheels to a bigger diameter if i want to. Honestly, reading up on inline skating this time round makes me realise how little i know. So yes.. :) SO EXCITED!!!

I'm going to start a Love Notebook which is going to be titled: Love Notes. This will be a place to jot down any thoughts i have about A... questions etc.. I think it will be a good thing. I would leave a page blank after each entry. Maybe one day, when we meet again, I will pass it to him and it would be interesting to know his reaction. We'll see. I would start it soon. :)

Well.. I'm back from my chalet.. and my students gave me some presents and a birthday and some amount of grief. They did not behave badly as a whole but there are some things that I'm disappointed with. All I've got to say is that they need to work on the ability to appreciate the efforts of people.. Or generally live outside their own world for a while. I do not quite know how to do that... but I guess I will find out somehow...

All the presents are very sweet. TW got me a set of stackable mugs and the motifs are all of cats. Good. Pays attention to what I like. Some of the girls got me a earring and necklace set. Combined the necklace with the handphone strap that another group of girls (or the whole class) gave. My name is spelt out with blink alphabets and a cat at the end. Nice touch. Now my hp is once again accessorise! RR got me a soft toy. Cute.

Am too tired to go out. No moolah contributes too... But I did do an adult thing too so that's good. At the end of about 48 hours with the kiddoes, I really needed adult company. So that was good. Reminds me how relationship between people can develop in the most unlikely manner. :) Met up with Q after like 4 mths. It always amazes me how we met and how our friendship developed. Been a good run. :) Things happen in the most amazing way.

Even though there's no booze or dancing to the music of my favourite band, I believe I am content.

As I walked towards my 27th birthday, I guess it would be good to do an evaluation. Of the Good things. Bad things, I don't brood. Some things are solvable, while others are not.. So have to let time run its course. Reflections after watching Sex and the City will probably be among the evaluations...

Listing not in order

1. I realised that I have a great family. We might not be the richest, but materially I never had cause to worry about. Parents are funny and supportive in their own way, sister is too. Couldn't ask for a better family is what I realised after staying on my own for the past 2 years.

2. I have great friends. People who would be understanding, know when I need silence, when I need a few words of encouragement, or listen when I want to rant.. Sometimes that's all that's needed...

3. I do have a great job. BUT I like selected parts of it. I like talking to my children, I like being able to teach them things about the world.. I like them asking me questions and I definitely like to see that hint of understanding when something I've been saying finally got through to them. It's an amazing feeling and that's what I define my job as. Sorry. All those bonuses do not compare to the knowledge that I'm respected for my own merits.

Actually.. this is almost everything.. I mean our lives are probably divided among these three big pies. Of course there is probably another section titled "ME" but I'm beginning to realise that "ME" is right in the middle of this Venn diagram. Who I am determines the kind of friends I have, how people treat me and my own insistence towards my own action in all three area.. and how these 3 areas turns out really depend highly on myself too.. so there.. I have been doing a lot of reconciliation.. with myself mainly. I don't see moving back home as returning to the old life because I realise that I have changed, my outlook of my home has changed, my roles and such. So there is definitely a kind of renewal.

There are many lessons left to be learnt.. and I will continue to learn, God willing. My latest mantra is: God never leave the door closed if He wants it open.. The reverse is true.