I hope I will remember to smile every time I come round here...
♥ DancingSheep
three cheers for me.
If this is about me, I really shouldn't be writing it. Because I don't know me.
1:24 AM
Monday, June 2, 2008
As I walked towards my 27th birthday, I guess it would be good to do an evaluation. Of the Good things. Bad things, I don't brood. Some things are solvable, while others are not.. So have to let time run its course. Reflections after watching Sex and the City will probably be among the evaluations...
Listing not in order
1. I realised that I have a great family. We might not be the richest, but materially I never had cause to worry about. Parents are funny and supportive in their own way, sister is too. Couldn't ask for a better family is what I realised after staying on my own for the past 2 years.
2. I have great friends. People who would be understanding, know when I need silence, when I need a few words of encouragement, or listen when I want to rant.. Sometimes that's all that's needed...
3. I do have a great job. BUT I like selected parts of it. I like talking to my children, I like being able to teach them things about the world.. I like them asking me questions and I definitely like to see that hint of understanding when something I've been saying finally got through to them. It's an amazing feeling and that's what I define my job as. Sorry. All those bonuses do not compare to the knowledge that I'm respected for my own merits.
Actually.. this is almost everything.. I mean our lives are probably divided among these three big pies. Of course there is probably another section titled "ME" but I'm beginning to realise that "ME" is right in the middle of this Venn diagram. Who I am determines the kind of friends I have, how people treat me and my own insistence towards my own action in all three area.. and how these 3 areas turns out really depend highly on myself too.. so there.. I have been doing a lot of reconciliation.. with myself mainly. I don't see moving back home as returning to the old life because I realise that I have changed, my outlook of my home has changed, my roles and such. So there is definitely a kind of renewal.
There are many lessons left to be learnt.. and I will continue to learn, God willing. My latest mantra is: God never leave the door closed if He wants it open.. The reverse is true.
